Secrets I keep to my other self
So...
I have been sleeping with my best friend and his steady, Tuesday. She requests my presences once for a video shoot and became a fan. After a few requests and possibly a few pushes here and there, I saw them on a Thursday satisfying her request and my curiosity. I know what your thinking, it isn't Tuesday. Somehow their schedules got mixed up and now she is on Thursday which makes her name even funnier because of the schedule change. Anyhow, back to the fucking a girl with my best friend thing;
When I'm in the moment with others, it seems harder to concentrate on any one thing. I tend to focus on what seems to be appropriate. This time, I don't think I chose wisely. I also noticed that when I was drunk, I could achieve what my sober self could not. My drunk self would engage with anal sex and threesomes and group sex as long as she was being worshipped, nothing really much matters. Something changed. I changed. After marriage and a rough go at life for over 10 years I developed an outer body sense, somehow. I don't remember when this change happened but it did and I would like to talk to management.
I don't cum like I used to. I'm not as wet as I use to be however I'm hornier than I've ever been before? How does that work? What happened to my body?! Whilst I must not focus on those things during, which I do, I try to please the person I am with which is my best friend...I have to give him a new title and nothing suits him thus far. Anyhow, There's been a handful of times I have had uninterrupted mind-blowing sex with him and I am grateful for the complete space-time and respect to be able to do that with another human being. So much better when it's with someone I trust. I want to have more experiences like this and letting go is the key. How?! How do I do this every time I'm with him when my defenses are up? How do I change the things I've seen and have done to myself over the years which allowed others to treat me poorly and carry their weight right along with my own? I'm a bit dramatic. Eh, huh... What I don't know is what I want from him. Isn't that fucked?! I get what I wanted, how I wanted and I don't know what to do with what I have?? Please make less sense.
I've decided to go with it. expect to have a good time when I spend time with him. try not to let the fact every action doesn't cause such a negative reaction that I will not be taken care of. As long as I state what my needs are, in a polite and reasonable fashion, things will be carried out as they are designed. That's hard. I try a lot and fail. I'll continue to try and have not attachment to the outcome to see if my results change. Rambling at this point.
I want to be wet for the person I am with. I want him to know that what he is doing to my spirit is elevating my orgasm to heights I'm not sure were invented in this galaxy. I want to be wet for him every time without thoughts running amuck in my skull. I want to be that prowess that he can't wait to be devoured by. I want to express myself more fully with him than I have ever wanted to be with anyone and I have no attachment to the desire. It would just be nice to have. I've grown. I sound ridiculously intelligent. TELL NO ONE!!
I have been sleeping with my best friend and his steady, Tuesday. She requests my presences once for a video shoot and became a fan. After a few requests and possibly a few pushes here and there, I saw them on a Thursday satisfying her request and my curiosity. I know what your thinking, it isn't Tuesday. Somehow their schedules got mixed up and now she is on Thursday which makes her name even funnier because of the schedule change. Anyhow, back to the fucking a girl with my best friend thing;
When I'm in the moment with others, it seems harder to concentrate on any one thing. I tend to focus on what seems to be appropriate. This time, I don't think I chose wisely. I also noticed that when I was drunk, I could achieve what my sober self could not. My drunk self would engage with anal sex and threesomes and group sex as long as she was being worshipped, nothing really much matters. Something changed. I changed. After marriage and a rough go at life for over 10 years I developed an outer body sense, somehow. I don't remember when this change happened but it did and I would like to talk to management.
I don't cum like I used to. I'm not as wet as I use to be however I'm hornier than I've ever been before? How does that work? What happened to my body?! Whilst I must not focus on those things during, which I do, I try to please the person I am with which is my best friend...I have to give him a new title and nothing suits him thus far. Anyhow, There's been a handful of times I have had uninterrupted mind-blowing sex with him and I am grateful for the complete space-time and respect to be able to do that with another human being. So much better when it's with someone I trust. I want to have more experiences like this and letting go is the key. How?! How do I do this every time I'm with him when my defenses are up? How do I change the things I've seen and have done to myself over the years which allowed others to treat me poorly and carry their weight right along with my own? I'm a bit dramatic. Eh, huh... What I don't know is what I want from him. Isn't that fucked?! I get what I wanted, how I wanted and I don't know what to do with what I have?? Please make less sense.
I've decided to go with it. expect to have a good time when I spend time with him. try not to let the fact every action doesn't cause such a negative reaction that I will not be taken care of. As long as I state what my needs are, in a polite and reasonable fashion, things will be carried out as they are designed. That's hard. I try a lot and fail. I'll continue to try and have not attachment to the outcome to see if my results change. Rambling at this point.
I want to be wet for the person I am with. I want him to know that what he is doing to my spirit is elevating my orgasm to heights I'm not sure were invented in this galaxy. I want to be wet for him every time without thoughts running amuck in my skull. I want to be that prowess that he can't wait to be devoured by. I want to express myself more fully with him than I have ever wanted to be with anyone and I have no attachment to the desire. It would just be nice to have. I've grown. I sound ridiculously intelligent. TELL NO ONE!!
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