Leave or Stay

Okay.

 

 In the past, I made my presence known in the club scene by eating fire and making sik cocktails for gangsters and drug dealers not knowing who they were or represented. Once discovered, I no longer had the desire to be among. And yes, it was that simple. 

The second type of change, because we are creatures that need a certain amount of chaos to function, made the soul bleed because bonds are hard to break and their silent accomplices devour the leftings. You do not get to have yourself back(why would you) and you don't know who you are. The identity of self breaks to make anew however, not all parties got the memo nor did they give consent. It's a slower process rather than walking away. What you leave behind is far more worse, year's of experience with yourself around people of comfort. But, what's more important? The you that's familiar or the you, you've never met? The decision is hard and easy. No, I do not want to be this person yet...who will I be?

Not knowing the latter is the right choice. It can make you stay on the sofa because it's warm. Not many brave through these decisions. I am proud to be among the few.