These Questions are hard to look at

Q). What did you do for yourself today?

Ans: I went out with a friend who listened to my bucket head w/o judgment and was present. I allowed myself to receive gifts and I feel bad about it and was grateful for our time together.

Do you have a routine?

Ans: Not yet(short answer).

Q). What are your defense mechanisms with panic attacks, anxiety, and PTSD?

Ans: None. I am still jarred by their arrival and relieved when they go.

Q). Do you have a lifeline? Want one?

Ans: Everyone should have one, I believe. At the moment, I have 1

Q). Define Happiness?

Ans: I couldn't begin to tell you what it is or looks like currently. I do know there is a sense of ease to your person and arrival in your bones.

Q). How do you pamper yourself?

Ans: I get waxed, pedicures, haircut simple pamper.

Q). What grabs your interest?

Ans: Human behavior, intimacy, communication, the body, shibari, essential oils and, sexual deviancies.

Q). Whom do you share your happiness with?

Ans: My roommate.

These are the questions I have been asking myself lately. There are many others but these were the first. As I continue to read and reread some of these questions and their answers, I begin to cry.