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I began my thought with other thoughts from the previous week which consumed and rotted my brain. I discovered something terrible and created more awful by trying to be present without holding and failed miserably. The whole month has been challenging. The last month wasn't a picnic either. But, as I talk wildly to the corners of my room trying to make sense of the shit show I bought tickets too, I've discovered a calm beginning to wash over me, devouring my attention and, recovering my crown...so to speak. I have done the work so allow it to do so. I have placed my intent so allow it to be seen. There isn't anything I can do to fix any of these situations. If this is the price I pay to become the woman I need to then so be it. I do not have it in me anymore to care. "They" don't give two shits about me so, why worry? Oh! That's too harsh?! Here's some Buddha shit:

 We all arrive at the right time. Some take longer than others and some may never get there in this life. Do or do not, the point is to make the journey anyway. What will be done and said may give you clarity and ground? Release yourself from the expectations and  OM. Not everything is a fight and not every fight needs to be won. Rest and try again.

So I shall.