Yer Going 2 Die

Just because you believed one thing does not mean you can't change your mind.

 Some days are better than others in that belief.

   When you are a child, your life spans the universe in always and forever. 

     Your parent's are super heroes. Your siblings are annoying little shits but you love them anyway. Your Grands are old people who make things you don't like yet are told to be polite. Your friends are your life support to the outside world or as much as they can be next to your video games. The teachers who brought the outside world of yesteryear have lost touch with reality as you know it. 

 It doesn't get much better than this moment or this moment or this moment. Moments are so fleeting when you are young. Moments are precious gifts when you grow old or older to recognize your mortality. 

  Sure, you say you are aware in quick judgement conversations with others as if you had the keys to the universe all along. 

   Life is, for some, getting older and  for those who want to vacation in Florida.

 

 When you are growing into the person you want to be and the gloves are off to do as you see fit...choices become life decisions and those decisions shape the world you walk around. 

 From nurture to nature, as you know it, has sheltered you from many atrocities so that your party feeds the monster of experience. 

   Cognitive mind begins to fade with each year. 

    Memories fade like Polaroids moving backwards.

    What was today's tomorrow is now tomorrow's desired wish to not come true.

 Relative is the concept. Suggestive to a fault. So much transpired, starting novels of a forgotten tale. This too has passed. Not to mention time was the illusion. Never forgetting time is on your side if wielded right.

Buddhist say that if you live your present life right, you won't have to live it again.

 Taoist say that you will live either way and may repeat as many times as you'd like.

  Who's right? 

    If this is , indeed, your last life lived, why not live it well? The definition deserves it's own meaning to each individual, does it not? So if we live only to die and repeat it again without knowledge of the previous...how is there a right way to live? 

These were my last thoughts to you. I wrote this many times and it never seemed to come out right. I guess my mind wonders more freely than I thought. The drugs they keep me on are better than the 60's that's for sure. What I'm trying to tell you Bishop; you will live the way life intends you to live it and the rewards will only be yours. Structure means nothing. Money is worthless designed to leave you once you have it. Love comes and goes. You will reinvent yourself ten times fold but, Yer Going 2 Die no matter what. 

 Just know that you lived first.